1996 - 1998 HANDWRITTEN MANUSCRIPT JOURNALS OF A YOUNG MENTALLY DISTURBED WOMAN WHO PAGE BY PAGE REVEALS HER SELF MUTILATION, MULTIPLE PERSONALITIES AND THE VOICES TELLING HER TO DO TERRIBLE THINGS WHILE SHE MANAGES HER CO-WORKERS

On offer are the riveting 1996-1998 handwritten diaries [2] of a self-destructive, drug taking, mentally ill and maybe deaf woman we believe to be 19 or 20 years old. She lives in Providence Rhode Island. [At one point she signs her name but we will not reveal what we believe it to be as these books are less than 15 years old.] These books are an unbelievable probing in-depth look into the mind of a profoundly disturbed woman who is very bright, well read, well written but extraordinarily troubled. She lays it all out in these journals. Here are some snippets: "[April 13th] at dad's doing illegal things; spoke to Dr. F_____, gave me 60 paxils; got a note too for blowing off class, I should make a copy; still confused to exit my life or go on. It's 50/50; [May 16th} In Butter, woman's partial program; was on 4th on suicide watch. Tried to OD on Paxil 2x; Missed finals. Life really does suck; [Memorial Day] I made two straight men kiss each other. Matt/Tom had a 3some. No sex. Ran around naked tripin on life. Hung out a window. 4 stories. Should I let the hands go; [June 5th] I think I need to go back in the hospital. I have too many overdue library books $114 worth and 2 more." Other entries point to getting help from a therapist [Sue] and the likely hood she has multiple personalities is detailed. She seems to name one Melissa and another named Malice. Later Dr. F______ believes she needs a shrink and Sue cannot give her what she needs. Shockingly she tells another story: 'Hung out with my sister [Chriss] last night, got high, watched a movie, enjoyed myself. I proud of her, not many people give her credit for her accomplishments. She was a deadhead, jailed for 2nd degree manslaughter, abused physically/mentally by our mother and her divorce. Now she has 3 beautiful kids, awesome dead head husband…' In another shocking entry: Dave - he's a shady character. He has a psychotic sense to him. He says I am twisted and evil and he is god's messenger. Why is it important for him to be in the book? Why does he love to play. The games that I crave he is craving. He wants to eat my death….He is sick. I am just crazy.' 'I found my old dissecting kit…can't help but want to cut myself…..Saw Sue. I switched during the session. I don't think she noticed.' Later in the second book our writer reveals she understands very well about her other personalities and then in another shocker after all the others she reveals that only one of her personalities is deaf! She goes on to revel that her bosses are impressed with how she handles work all the while she is hearing voices. She even begins to call her inner personalities 'the kids' and she writes in her diary that she wishes one of the others would clean the room and pay the bills because she is sick of it. As the second book progresses her mental state declines. She moves near Boston and suggests that if Melissa finds out she will be pissed. She burns some pages with a cigarette it appears, she has torn out some later pages but near the end the writing gets more chaotic and then stops with the last paragraph referring to going to wrapped in blanket with fearlessness and a teddy bear for a pillow and then to sleep. Sadly we think this was her end. Journal 1 is about 100 pages and nearly full. Journal 2 is about 120 pages and about 70% full. VG.; Manuscript; 8vo - over 7¾" - 9¾" tall; MENTAL ILLNESS, PSYCHIATRY, OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER, CUTTING, SELF MUTILATION, GENDER STUDIES, WOMEN'S STUDIES, GENDER, MULTIPLE PERSONALITY DISORDER, SUICIDE, MANUSCRIPT, DOCUMENT, LETTER, AUTOGRAPH, KEEPSAKE, WRITER, HAND WRITTEN, DOCUMENTS, SIGNED, LETTERS, MANUSCRIPTS, HISTORICAL, HOLOGRAPH, WRITERS, AUTOGRAPHS, PERSONAL, MEMOIR, MEMORIAL, PERSONAL HISTORY, AMERICANA, ALS, ARCHIVE, DIARY, DIARIES, CIVIL WAR ERA, WAR BETWEEN THE STATES, ANTIQUITÉ, CONTRAT, VÉLIN, MANUSCRIT, PAPIER ANTIKE, BRIEF, PERGAMENT, DOKUMENT, GENEALOGY, CONCORD, NEW HAMPSHIRE, antiquité, contrat, vélin, document, manuscrit, papier Antike, Brief, Pergament, Dokument, Manuskript, Papier oggetto d'antiquariato, atto, velina, documento, manoscritto, carta antigüedad, hecho, vitela, documento, manuscrito,